yoyoyo.
im free tuhx blog today.
cos im sick. nbcb.
qo home early frm work.
my lungs problem act up aqains. damn.
i went tuhx see doc den de doc say i flu and block nose that's why lungs was affected.
omg, i nearly cant breathe when im at work today. fucked it.
tml no work. meeting baby!=D
4 days nv meet le. im dying. lols.
i wonder how can i survive if i turn single one day. LOL.
jkjk.
i can survive no matter what.
i will survive.
hahas. at most like what jj said, work slp work slp work slp. lols.
ytd meet up wid charlene, yvette, jj and ting hao.
smth cropped up half way.
haiishx. dun talked abt it. overall de meet up is fun.
we had dirty talks, play cards and all. catch up and everything. lols.
it great tuhx see my frens tgt aqains.
cpl patching up and all. hahas.
i wanna break and patch also cannot. LOL.
joking, it will nv happen. hahas.
hope tuhx see my frens aqains.
really miss them.
didnt have much tyme fer them.
but only one bloody guy dun have tyme fer me. MR RAO WEI YANG. knns.
lols. always wanna meet hym but cannot. fucked up. lols.
qort so manyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy things tuhx tell hym sial.
when den can meet hym. miss hym de most sial. whie liddat de. angry lehsssssssss.
lols.
alright i will stop here okayys.
tml i will take me and baby pictures frm his phone and upload tuhx fb and post here.
wait fer meeeeeeeeeeeee.
bye. ciaos.

baby.
im sorry. i let you suffer a heartache ytd.
sometimes i wonder, am i really a gud gf.
seriously. though i love you but i just feel that you are suffering a lot being wid me.
i gort thoughts of leaving you, not becos i dun love you anymore butttt.....
i just hate tuhx see you cry at times becos of me.
it hurts me.
i feel that im not enuf fer you. wo pei bu shang ni. zhen de zhen de.
you said, when a person wanna leave someone tuhx make that someone happie means that person dun love that someone as much as before.
but th truth is im not. i really love you.
but i wish tuhx see you happie.
i feel that im a failure.
only you can give me happiness but i cant.
i dun even know if you are truely happy when you are with me, i only know im happy when im wid you.
isnt it funny?
i feel that im a failure.
but i cant bear tuhx leave you.
cos you have alr become a part of me.
i feel that i cant make you happie at all.
when i know you are sad or angry, i tried tuhx make you happy, but i failed.
when i see you telling your frens, they nv fail tuhx make you smile, i feel so useless.
i dunno which part of me is gud.
i feel like qoinq further frm you, but i cant.
i feel like controlling my love, but i cant.
i tried tuhx control my thoughts, i cant.
i feel that im not as gud as your fren.
seriously i cant throw away gf this status.
wo bu pei. zhen de.
i feel like keeping back my feelings.
i really dunno what i can do.
i scared you will be like J****.
leave me behind just like that.
haiishx.
teach me. what shud i do.
failure siongyu.